Posts Tagged ‘frustration’

I was going to name this post “Heaven”. But, as most of you know, there are serious wild fires going on in Southern California. The sun gave off an orange glow all day yesterday because of the smoke. I drove out to meet a client in South Pasadena and could smell the smoke there. According to KNBC.com, almost one million people evacuated from their homes. In San Diego County, one in three homes ordered to be evacuated. More than 1,600 homes destroyed. :-( Hard to fathom that any of the fires was started intentionally by someone. But arson is suspected. If only these people can feel EACH AND EVERY heartbreak they caused.

It is a good thing that the wind has died down for the moment.

What was that “Heaven” business about? Well, just a quick mention now that I have sufficiently dampened the spirit. We went to Osteria La Buca in Hollywood for dinner last Thursday. The food was heavenly. I don’t remember having ever enjoyed food that much. Everything from appetizer to desert that we had was just fantastic. I ordered Tenette with Bolognese sauce. Hand made pasta cooked to perfection. The sauce looked simple. But with just one bite and I could taste all the love and care put into making it. Yum! Highly recommended. Do make dinner reservations if you want to go in the evening. The place was packed!

I FINALLY finished “My So Called Scarf” on Tuesday. It is a nice 7 feet long. I like my scarves long. I am also quite impressed with the dye job of Manos del Uruguay. I thought that with the deep, rich colors of the yarn, it would definitely bleed a little when I soak it in warm water. Not a bit. The water stayed clear! Oh, and I love my foam tiles for blocking. :-)

My Harmony needles arrived yesterday. The tips are a little sharper than the Inox’s metal tips, which I was hoping for. (Photo shows US #3 Harmony and Inox.) The colors of the needles are quite fun! Definitely darker than what Knit Picks’ web site shows. Now I will have to see if they are durable. Time to cast on again for Spider Queen!

That’s how CB was describing me. How did that pharase come to be anyway? My illness developed into a serious case of sinus infection Wednesday afternoon. Running nose, coughs and all that yucky stuff. Other than getting up for a few must do projects, I pretty much stayed in bed for a couple of days.

Like the new look of the blog? I wanted to go with clean and simple. This is just that. I am also closing A Forest Blog, my Buddhist blog. Not going to stop talking about Buddhist practices. It’s just that there’s only one post entry on that blog EVER. I write about Buddhist thoughts on this blog more often anyway. I am just going to combine the two. I am keeping the Tarot Journey separate. It’s restarted after a long pause.

I made a terrible mistake on the Spider Queen. Terrible, terrible mistake. I knitted it while under a fever. I know, I know. Someone once told me not to. But I was so curious to see how the pattern worked. It was my first lace piece that has pattern knitted on every row. I just wanted to know. Blah blah blah. Anyway, I made a mistake and I didn’t even know how. Too sick to try to fix it. Luckily I only had 8 rows knitted. It wasn’t too difficult to let go and start over. This is what I will do. I am going to knit a swatch. That will satisfy my curiosity. I also want to see how Blackberry Ridge’s Thistledown singles work in this pattern. It is a little bit of “thick ‘n thin”. Plus sections of it have very little twist. This makes me nervous. Maybe Ted can elaborate on this a little? He knitted Rosebud with this yarn.

1. I finally got out of the house and went to th SnB at Culver City on Monday. I fully intended to cast on for Spider Queen. I took everything with me… almost. Pattern, yarn, waste yarn, needles, etc. But I forgot an important piece of information I needed. Instructions on Provisional Cast-on! Grrrr… What’s even worse. Lightening condition was not optimal and I was having a tough time looking at my knitting, even with a yarn like Manos del Uruguay. Yikes! I need reading glasses.

2. On Tuesday I went to the doctor’s office to get my blood pressure reading. He wanted to keep an eye on me because my BP was almost the level of Hypertension, and there’s family history. It was better on Tuesday, but still in the borderline range. I ordered a home monitor on Amazon.

3. I got sick. Probably caught something at the SnB, or at the hospital. Funny how you go to the hospital to stay or get healthy, but sometimes you end up taking something home with you.

Better news… I got on Ravelry. I didn’t think I’d want another account on another social networking site. But I got in line for a beta account just in case. Got it last week, and guess what… it is quite good. It’s not another blog or photo management thing. It’s more like a big digital project management for fiber lovers. It links to blogs and Flickr account, making it easy to keeping project notes super easy. You can browse projects and patterns, and with one click adding it to future project queue. I am really loving these features. And of course, there are features that let you easily connect to like-minded individuals. By the way, my ID is midpath on Ravelry. :-)

More good news. I casted on for Spider Queen last night! hehehe I was going to do the usual Provisional Cast-on by wrapping the cast-on stitches around a piece of waste yarn. (Maybe it was a good thing that I didn’t have the instructions on Monday.) But those twisted stitches could easily get out of place if one’s not careful. So I went with the Crocheted Chain method, picking up stitches through the bumps on the back of the chain. I found clear instructions here.

We still don’t know when we will be moving. Heck! We don’t even know where we are moving to anymore. After CB informed our CEO about our willingness to move to Half Moon Bay to be closer to the office, he became unable to give the final OK.  We are so sick of this indecision.

One thing we know is that we want to move out of BH. We will stay put until the end of year. If we don’t hear anything by then, we will decide where we want to move to. We still love Half Moon Bay. Phoenix, Arizona is a possibility. We have a wonderful friend that moved there a few years ago. The other is somewhere in Oregon. We might take a trip up there soon just to check out the area.

Yes, Odessa is done. Finally. And just in time too. Mom is losing hair rapidly :-( and I am taking this to her this weekend. I could’ve had this done earlier. But I made a stupid mistake last week when I was feeling frustrated. More on the frustrating situation in a bit. The stupid mistake happened after switching to DPNs. I thought I could use the tail end to identify the beginning of a round as usual. WRONG! The stitches shift with this pattern, and the tail end shifts with them of course. After a few decreasing rounds I thought I made a mistake somewhere due to the position of the tail end. I started picking back because I couldn’t see where the mistake was. (DUH! There was none.) Then I dropped a stitch right next to a YO and couldn’t figure out how to fix it. I was tempted to just rip it and re-knit. Instead I left it alone for two days and was able come back and figure out the fix. Phew! It is now blocking. Not sure if I like the yarn choice though. Originally I wanted a cotton blend for warmer weather but decided to go for a wool blend for elasticity. I didn’t know at the time but it turned out to be the yarn called for in the pattern. I bought Rowan Cashsoft DK. I can’t describe the color. It’s not pink, and it’s not lavender. Sort of in between. One ball is more than enough for the hat.

Now. About that frustrating situation. I can go on talking about this for days, but I’ll try to keep it short. You can probably guess, it’s mom-related. Not just about her condition, but the most frustrating part is about the kind of help she gets at home. My sister, Lily, who lives with mom and not working (Lily, her husband and kid are all living at mom’s.) volunteered to care for mom full time (with compensation of course.) Here are what happened recently:

  1. During the last doctor’s visit I went with mom, we found out that she wasn’t getting enough food and water. Mom ended up going through re-hydration that day. How could this happen when three other individuals live there with her? Especially when one of them is being paid to care for mom full time?
  2. I visited mom last Saturday and found out that she had forgotten to take her meds for 2 days. Nobody thought to check on her. And it happened again a couple of days later.
  3. Something happens every time Lily takes mom to the hospital. I go to the consultations. Leaving the less complicated visits for Lily, who lives with mom and they are only 5 minutes away from the hospital. But somehow she just can’t get things done smoothly. She would be late, or get the priorities all wrong and end up staying hours longer than necessary. No matter how careful I instruct her with these visits. There was one time that she left mom’s purse at the hospital after the chemo. $900 was missing when she picked it up. Something is fishy about that. I won’t elaborate.
  4. More than half of the time when I visited mom I found Lily up in her room, leaving mom by herself downstairs.

OK, I want to stop right here. I just don’t think she is sincere about taking care of mom. Unfortunately this might be another scheme of hers to not work but still get paid. She’s done things like that. But whatever this is it can’t go on. My other sister Angela and I are looking to find someone to stay there full time to look after mom. Meanwhile I am checking up on mom everyday. I’ll also be there for every hospital visit. I’d feel better doing that myself.

:: sigh ::

Onto happier things. I received several packages. Hmm… Am I doing “retail therapy”? Well, these are necessary things. So there! I got a package from Blackberry Ridge. Two hat kits to make more hats for mom. Four Corner Hat (the colorful one) and Swirling Leaves Hat (Vines in the Evening). I can’t wait to get started on these. But I think I need to find something more suitable for warm weather fast. Something using cotton blend yarn. Any idea? Oh, I also got yarn samples for all of their yarn.

This also came in the package. Yes. Spider Queen! I wasn’t kidding when I said I wanted to knit this shawl. :-) Although the yarn, Thistledown Singles, is not the thinnest I’ve ever seen. It will definitely be the thinnest I’ve ever knit with so far. There are 4 hanks of this. Yes. HANKS! That means I have to wind them into balls first. Not to worry. Other things arrived too. :-)

Yes. I also got my cotton cards, ball winder and vertical swift! I love my swift. And my winder and swift love each other too. The winder sits on top of the swift nicely. I can’t wait to see how this is going to work. I will take a few photos of it in action for an update.

I also got a craft light. But you don’t need to see that. Just something to make my knitting universe a little brighter. :-)